Can a person fail at life? Is there a point where you've just let so many people down, and you're so unhappy in your own life that it just becomes obvious that you've failed.
I keep letting myself get into situations that I don't want to be in. And this happened quite recently. I was with this guy I know. And I knew if I stayed around I would slip up. And yet I went there in the first place. To say the least I backslid a bit. But as soon as I left I regreted having gone in the first place, and it's been eating at me. My friend told me I just need to talk to my bishop. But I can't bring myself to do it. I actually met with him that day, but it was too fresh in my mind and I was embarassed. And now the longer I wait the harder it gets.
I just feel like I've let a lot of people down.
It was kind of funny, at least in my mind, that one of the speakers in sacrament this weekend said something along the lines of "trying to stay on the path without asking for help is the way to dig yourself to hell." Not exact I admit but very close. I guess that's part of my problem though. "Give your burdens to the Lord," is something I've heard numerous times, but I don't ask for help. It seems weak. And maybe it's the other way. That a man who can't admit when he needs help is the weaker, but i've never really asked for help. I would starve, and suffer, and fail before asking for help because i should be able to do it on my own. Shouldn't I?
2 comments:
I think you wuld be amazed at how much those people are NOT let down, but are really there to help you back up. We all make mistakes. And self-improvement takes a long, long time. Just don't give up. The rest of us will be patient, with an outstretched hand.
I have to agree with Darrin. Learning that self-improvement takes a long time is something that's very necessary. I'm still having a hard time with it. I want so much to be perfect now, to be strong and able. but I'm learning that it's more of a process than anything else I know of.
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