Hate........Haste*

Maybe I was hasty in my decision before. Although I'm still not sure this is actually helping.

I hate my life right now. I'm angry all the time. And even though I keep telling people I don't know why I'm sure it has to do with Ben.

I don't know how to stop either but if anything has such a detrimental effect on the soul as hate and anger I don't know what it could be. It's beginning to seep into all my thoughts and actions. I'm hostile towards my friends and rude to people i don't know. I just don't seem to care anymore. My thoughts of late have been "what does it matter what others think, they'll only hurt you in the end."

I know these thoughts should seem bleak, but they've become the norm. I wish I knew how to heal what i feel. I don't though.